Growing Old

It's gonna happen to all of us eventually. Were all gonna get old. It sucks but that's life. The problem for me is that I'm in my mid thirties and still feel like I'm in my late teens. Mentally anyway, my body feels like I'm in my sixties. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the bachelor life and not having to much responsibility. But now most of my freinds and acquaintances are married with children, and I understand that there priorities have changed. basically, they can't come out and play anymore. and that's fine. All of my friends with kids are turning into good parents and I'm happy for them. I also understand raising a crumb cruncher is a full time job.


Here's my problem. I'm single, no kids, and still wanna go out and party till the break of dawn, bar hop, and you know, generally act like I'm still in college. But I hate trying to meet new people, and any new people I do meet are probably half a generation younger than me. And I hate the generation under mine. For about the past year my weekends have been a lot like my married freinds, staying at home maybe watching a movie, occasionally discussing important matters over a cocktail with my neighbor.


I have had the same core group of friends since elementary and middle school. We never moved out of town, and always stayed in touch. I also have people I consider freinds that have moved on to bigger and better things. But for the most part It's been the same social scene for the past twenty four or so years. Some would say that's awesome, and I could understand that. Some would say that's pathetic and I can also understand that. Now that they are adults my social life has slowed down considerable.

I got comfortable, and now it's biting me in the ass. It sucks to be that guy that goes to the bar alone and I'm not gonna do it. Even when I do go out to a bar to see a band or just hang out I feel like I'm the oldest guy in the room. So how do I meet new people in social situations? I thought about just hanging out at self help meetings like the character in the movie Fight Club, but these people have addictive personalities, and that is a trait I dislike in people. Even when I do meet new people that I like, I tend to push them away or just start to avoid them after a while. Isn't psychosis fun?

So until I break out of crazies, I guess I'll just be happy to sit at home and watch movies. Hot Fuzz was released this week. I like the dry humor of the British.